Tapping the Spenny to get to the Kenny part II

Even though he would use this as a cheesy pick up line, I do think we all have some Kenny in us. Well, most of us. There has to be the anomaly, that person who represents the core of the negative viewpoint, the Spenny in us. As a species, we are quite negative in nature. We are drawn to it. We are sucked into negative gossip about negative people. Our news is highly negative in nature. Negativity sells. Negative news scare us into buying new products to protect us from the evils of the world.

Simply put, we as people, if we are to succeed, must rise above our negative nature. We must choose to be positive. We must find our inner Kenny. In my path, the last few days, I have found myself making a more genuine effort ‘not to sweat the small stuff’. On a stop of mine yesterday, I had to park in an ugly stop. I took a whack of flack from another motorist, who liberally used some expletives about my choice of parking spaces in a small vehicle lot with a five ton. All I could do was agree with the passer by in how it was nice to be able to park where I wanted, and laughed at all his half-assed remarks. I also find myself further separated from some other drivers at work. Some are a really fucking negative lot. I could only imagine a few would be scrounging the alleys of Hastings and Main for used crack rocks on the pavement if they didn’t work a union job. I don’t think they could find or keep anything else at this point. By comparison, my life could be a hell of a lot worse.

But, as promised, this is not a work groan session, but rather a personal introspection. So, how I stack up on the next three qualities of positive thinkers:

They always try their hardest for perfection
I do. I really do. I hate being wrong. I hate making mistakes. Unfortunately, there is a double edge to this sword. I make my bar set for personal perfection. No mistakes. A catch-22 considering that I am a member of a flawed species. I try to look at the concept of perception more as giving my best, where my best is exceeding, even by just an inch, what I feel my maximum capability or skill is. I just have to remember that at times it is justifiable for my flaws to occur, so long as I take the opportunity to learn from them.

They never consider the idea of failing
Having just answered this in a sense in the previous quality of positive thinkers, it is easy to extrapolate the answer to this quality. I hate failing. And when I strive for flawless perfection in the stead of self improvement and personal best, I become consumed by the notion of failure. Hence why I should always push myself to be better at all times, but not draw the hard line on absolute perfection.

They work extremely hard towards their goals
Too fucking right. Dawn always tells me that when I get the bit in my teeth, I never let it go. When there is something that I want, I don’t let go until I get it. I just have to remember to exercise some balance. Other things I care about, like family and friends, can become easily neglected when I get deeply involved in something. Balance is good.

Part three, with a new television theme comes tomorrow.

Interdum vos ut volvo ferrus six.

Tapping the Spenny to get to the Kenny part I

Based on my past history, one would think that I would pull for Spenny to beat Kenny in each of their ego-driven, testosterone induced competitions. Nothing could be further from the truth. I cheer, yell, scream, and use the ForceTM as Kenny lies, cheats, tortures, and ultimately crushes Spenny again and again and again.

Why though? For those who know me (or at least have some semblance of an idea about me), I grew up much more in the train of Spenny than Kenny. I was a geek. Nerd. Dork. High School Loser. The only thing I really could say about myself was that I had a big brain, could skate and play defense, baseball, and ski like hell. It was the latter three that kept me going through high school. I could go on, but I used certain physical skills to fit in, to be (in name only) another high school automaton. It reduced the torment. But something was wrong.

I wasn’t myself. It took me until well into university until I was comfortable in my own skin. Just over twenty years out of the womb to begin the path to self acceptance. Definitely more Spenny than Kenny. But still, why do I cheer Spenny? Frankly, nearing the ripe age of forty, Spencer Nolan Rice still hasn’t started. Watch the show. He repeats mantras obviously given to him by a therapist to keep him rational. I, on the other hand, have learned not to conform to society’s pre-set thoughts, opinions, and beliefs about the nature of existance and my place within it.

I am an individualist, who does have a great deal to offer the world. My morals, values and beliefs are a product of my experiences, not what some fictional doctrine or stuffy rich bastard wants me to think or feel to perpetuate an artificial air of control. Bah.

Still, to look at the positivity of my existence, and to continue my path of self discovery and invoking my inner Kenny, here is part one of four measuring how I stack up on the twelve qualities that positive thinkers typically share.

They have confidence in themselves
At the things I’m good at, I have absolute confidence. Skiing. Hockey. Baseball. Poker. Battlestar Galactica trivia. I truly believe I am the best at my strengths. My weaknesses are a much different thing. I find it difficult to work hard at things I suck at. Like video games that I can’t get the flow of. I’m sure Dawn’s thinking about Torino 2006 at this point. Though I’m good at keeping the razor’s edge sharp, to grow I know I must work at that which I struggle.

They have a very strong sense of purpose
So long as there is a purpose. The last two years, with film work lean and the day job wearing out, I have lost sense of my purpose. But my purpose transcends film. Being a right boffin, I can only hear these words in my mind on repeat. ‘I have a responsibility to use my gifts for a purpose much higher than personal gain.’ I also remember the words of one Joey DeVilla a few days back:

We make a living by what we get; we make a life by what we give.

Somewhere in my future, teaching and sharing my knowledge and experience will be paramount.

They never have excuses for not doing something
I don’t. There are a good few things I tend not to finish, and I just blame myself. No one else. I really need to re-acquire the habit of following through 100% 100% of the time. Not 95% 95% of the time. I also need to get back into the habit of using a day planner daily. A co-worker said not too long ago something about aging. We do not lose our mental accuities or skills, we are just conscious of more distractions. I must discipline myself to maintain my razor focus on the tasks at hand.

Tomorrow, the next three.

Interdum vos ut volvo ferrus six.

Gods Love the Sheer Joy of the Interweb dot Georb…

Well, at least WordPress. I do love the feature of linking related articles within the WordPress blogosphere. Amongst other reasons, it’s just good to spark the creative process.

And with my current fascination with the number Twelve (sidenote: it’s a shame the Final Five are unnumbered… I wonder if the drunk bastard is Twelve), I ran across this post about positive thinking (something I have to become engaged in again).

As such, it outlines these twelve qualities that positive thinkers typically share:

* They have confidence in themselves
* They have a very strong sense of purpose
* They never have excuses for not doing something
* They always try their hardest for perfection
* They never consider the idea of failing
* They work extremely hard towards their goals
* They know who they are
* They understand their weaknesses as well as their strong points
* They can accept and benefit from criticism
* They know when to defend what they are doing
* They are creative
* They are not afraid to be a little different in finding innovative solutions that will enable them to achieve their dreams

- Susan Polis Schulz -

As such, the next twelve posts (which I have to do by this Sunday as I feel the need to re-cap Galactica in preparation for the end, I am going to do an individual post about each item, where I stand, and where I feel I need improvement.

All this starts tomorrow.

Interdum vos ut volvo ferrus six.